I need to win the lottery or come into a big inheritance.
I need a place of my own where I can lock myself away and ignore the world.
Fuck people.
I don't want to speak to another person.

I swear I saw Jane at CompUSA the other day....
I tried saying her name, but everyone knows how impossible it is to hear me most of the time.
Sooo
I have no idea if it was her...
If not I swear she looked just like her, short red hair and all.
o.o

I think it's adorable how he practically rolls over to confiscate my abandoned pillows when he's asleep.
Sometimes he cuddles, or he'll just cling.

You don't support me? 
Fine.
Deal with it.
I'm going to stick with modeling because it is what I love to do.
If he can tell me that he has quit smoking cigarettes yet smoke them whenever I'm not around or when he thinks I'm sleeping,
then there is definitely no reason for me to give up something that I've never lied about.
This isn't even the first time I've caught him, I'm just sick of it.
I don't even want him to touch me right now.

I hate being lied to, especially by him.
Why should I give up what I love when he won't give up something he had supposedly quit long ago?

don't tell me it upsets you when you go ahead and laugh right with them.
if it upset you that much you would tell them to stfu
not bitch to me about how one day you're going to tell them to shove it.

these lies are not making me feel any better about being here.

i'm wasting away
for real this time
95 lbs as of last night.



i'm so pissed right now that i almost wish i could just lose the rest and shrivel up and die by the end of the night.

i love my baby
he always makes me feel better


i just need to start bleeding so this pms will stop

i'm in NC now
and i can tell you one thing
i hate it almost as much as FL
i get left out just as fucking much







i can't wait till corey and i have a place for ourselves, with NO roommates
i'm tired of being the tag along, the one always welcome to join but never actually invited
even my own fucking fiance isn't trying to help me stop feeling like shit
all he can do is bitch that i got him sick
to top it off
i have fucking bronchitis

if i didn't exist
than he wouldn't have any need to bitch